Day 841: Yo, yo, yo-yo-yo

As mentioned a while back, I’m in and out of a good groove right now; the holiday weekend was not super great, and following our vacation I’m kind of back to beginning-of-the-year status in terms of weight. But I’ve been getting better with the tracking streak, and as mentioned, I need to fire on all cylinders for this to work.

We get back to motivation, and why I don’t want to do these things. It’s the important question — maybe THE MAIN QUESTION OF THE PAST TWO AND A HALF YEARS! Sorry for all-capping that, but that’s where my head is at this morning.

I run up against a lot of motivations and a lot of attempts and a lot of slips, and here are the two countervailing truisms:

  1. Fall down seven times, get up eight times. Keep trying! You can get this licked.
  2. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. If something’s not working, change it up.

The wrinkle here is I know what works, but I choose not to do it. I get bored, or distracted, or frustrated. I think the deepest seated weird thing in my brain is a feeling of rebellion. I feel like “ooh, I’m being naughty” which is kinda… dumb. Who am I rebelling against? What am I rebelling for?

We’re deep into the “this podcast as self-therapy” territory again, I guess.