Day 702: Back to Bad Habits

Arrgh! Exercise eludes me, and only one day back. Up at 3:30 for peeing, then cat-in-Christmas-tree related reasons, took forever to fall back asleep, so back to late sleep. Now I have to do the Tiniest Gallery, which I’m a few days overdue for, but the November artist wants her art back (which is fair!) so I gots to get the new display up this morning.

I feel bad about the not exercising. I’ll compensate through low food and a brisk walk to and from work, but it’s irritating not to get that done.

49 days remaining of daily food logging!


Day 700: Back to Reality

Back to work tomorrow, and 300-plus emails await me… I shouldn’t have peeked. Time offline was great, but it’s nice to be back online (in moderation).

Exercise was the big loser this week, but we’ll be back on that tomorrow. Food? Not terrible. Sobriety? Locked down. Sleep? Excellent. It was a great week for sleep, aside from the “no digital life, weird busy brain” issue getting to sleep. But waking up naturally, no alarm, naps… it was a good sleep week.

So back to exercise, food tracking, the whole nine yards tomorrow. I can definitely credit the “no digital” days for the best staycation ever; I feel like I’ve actually vacationed, instead of just having a long, weird weekend.

Back to it tomorrow!


Day 689: A Good Workout

Probably the first solid workout I’ve had in two weeks today, with being sick and ramping back in after that. A solid workout is great! It’s solid!

That’s a nice way to start the day. I’ve got a training thing today and tomorrow — I’m taking a process management course for work — so I need to rocket out the door and get to work early to put out some fires before moving on to training all day, then off to volunteer stuff in the evening.

I choose to do these things! I choose them!

This is about the threshold for me, though. The exercise helps with stress for sure; I’ve been sleeping through my wife getting early so no more Back To Bed in the morning. There’s a certain crush happening right now, but once my course is done (three weeks) things will lighten up a little.


Day 660: Perfect Exercise

All right!

What would exercise look like, if I were exercising ideally? What kind of shape am I in?

About 175 pounds. My best-ever fightin’ weight mid-20s count-the-abs self was 165. 175 is probably fair in my mid-40s.

Exercising every day but Sunday. Getting in around 300 calories of exercise; this is deliberate hard work, not walkin’ to work and around the building and stuff. Long walks can be exercise! But commuting walking and work-walking isn’t.

Strength and core training, not just cardio.

Gym? Nah. Even perfect me doesn’t want to spend the money, and gym has never really worked out for me in the past. I think that’s still a home-based activity.

With intention. I’ve had a huge problem with this in the last several months — getting it in, but also phoning in.

I’m exhausted just thinking about this!


Day 653: Careful With That Food, Eugene

A not-great day for exercise today — cat-based insomnia — but I had a good day for food yesterday, and a good exercise session yesterday.

So it’s “careful with food” today, as I get ready to move out. I haven’t weighed myself in a while! I got the scale back while I was on vacation, but vacation. And now I’m frankly a bit too anxious to do it. I’m going to give myself a week of eating well before I give that a shot.

Day 623: Up Early on a Sunday

Knocking out some correspondence and a bit of work stuff before heading back to bed. We did a flurry of housekeeping and project-based stuff yesterday, which clears today for a mix of chores and relaxing.

Folks, it has been bad for food and exercise for the last 10 days or so. I know I was hoping for September to be a bit of a fresh start, but hoo Mama, when work kicked in, exercise went right out the window. That’s understandable. I’m pretty stoked about my new lease on work-life, and have been happy to slack off in some areas to focus on others.

I’m now feeling kind of like a sea lion caught on the beach, though, so with the start of a new week it’s probably time to start restoring that balance.

No exercise today — Sunday — but back on it tomorrow.


Day 606: No sleep, but exercise

My first 10k in forever this morning. Slow — over an hour — but I got it done.

This on very little sleep — for variety’s sake, it was both my wife and I up in the night for about an hour, then lying in bed and talking for probably another ninety minutes before she fell back asleep and I just kept on thinkin’.

Up at 4:30, a good long run, and a good hard think while running.

Obviously, things have been on my mind — again, nothing I can really share publicly. I don’t think I’ve come up with any masterful solutions over the past 24 hours, but the exercise and mulling it over has definitely helped me chunk the problem out into categories of difficulty that I can tackle in segments. That’s a good start.

I’m glad I’m moving toward an exercise > sleep path, at least for now. I feel better having gotten the exercise in than I would have with another hour of fitful rest, I think.

Day 605: Exercise despite insomnia

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Another insomnia night; up at 2:30 and tried to force myself back to bed at 3:15. After drifting in and out for a while, I punched the alarm and rolled over at five, woke up naturally at 6:20, and then literally raced to get a short workout in.

I’ve let it rule my life for weeks; it seems like it’s going to persist, so I need to start recapturing exercise, at least, and… I don’t know, “lean into it” feels wrong, but… if insomnia’s going to be a partner in my journey for a while, I’m going to have to find ways to make sure it’s not a drag.

So: daily exercise regardless of sleep level. If it makes the rest of my day harder, that’s something to deal with in the rest of the day. But I can’t do the “no sleep, no exercise” pattern any more.

Day 592: Insomniaaaa

Short one today — rough one last night. Up at around 12:45, and just couldn’t get back to sleep. Nothing terrible, but loads going on with work things and volunteer things.

This is the ol’ downward spiral: I don’t sleep, so I get fitful late rest but then don’t exercise, which affects my ability to sleep the next night. A big day ahead of me today, so hopefully that’ll tucker me out good and I’ll get back into the right routine.

Day 576: Test next week; sloggy exercise

Man! Exercise is still sloggy — 7k run this morning, not a terrible time but still felt like I was pushing through cotton somehow.

Next week is the big Jerkpod trial — I have just enough call-ins to get by, on the theme of “how do you psych up for an unpleasant task?”

I’m not sure I can pull this off. My friend Michael’s sage advice was to do this in a stepped approach — try to start with spaced theme/call-in weeks, and see if I can build traction that way.

The short version is that I need to make more time for this if I’m going to make a go of this. We’ll see how I feel about the test next week — Monday’s a holiday, which will help with setting the week up and checking the time it takes. I need to work on those exit strategies for volunteer work…