The fair cured me of my floomp! Specifically the Zipper, which is a ride that I never want to get on but always have a blast once I’m on it. Onion rings, a lame horror ride, and seeing serious shade being thrown in the form of passive-aggressive cookie judging all made my day way better.
That is a sick 4H burn. Eating no cookie at all delivers a better experience than this cookie. Wow.
Anyway, I felt a lot better, and I ate terrible onion rings, and we bought a wooden jack-o-lantern that Marisa really liked, and then I had a nap. Later, D&D.
I think the D&D formula is now nailed down: late nap, Dungeons & Dragons, sleep for four hours, feed the cats, sleep for three hours. Boom.
I feel pretty good.
Some reading to do for school, but I also feel on top of that. I’m not necessarily grasping the finer nuances of doctrinal versus non-doctrinal legal research, but that’s what the class is for, right? Learning.
I woke up this morning feeling kinda low, and I’m not sure why. Things are going pretty well, all things considered; I’m happy with the job, fitness, etc; studies are going all right, I’m excited about the Next Thing with Marisa, relationship’s good.
Things are, in short, firing on all cyclinders.
So why the floomp? It’s a mystery. It’s been a slow morning in terms of exercise (Saturday), and it’s natural to just be crabby sometimes, so maybe the blog/podcat and general getting-things-going of this action will de-floomp me. Or getting the WAFFLES!cast done. Or going out this afternoon to the carnival, if we wind up going…
KEY UPDATE: enervate actually kind of means exhausted, which is dumb because it is clearly a combination of energized and aggravated. Words are goofy!
And then I just kind of kept playing the playlist when I was done. Now I’m enervated — not energized, exactly, just kind of feeling like I’m doing everything a little faster than I need to, and feeling a little more agitated than I should.
Stop! Nice jazz. There.
It’s pretty amazing how music affects my mood. I’m not sure if it’s universal or individual; probably somewhere in the middle, and everyone is affected somewhat and some people are affected more.
So yes; sleep did not go well last night, and we’re back to sleeping late, up late, scrambling to get out the door and (the twist!) to class. The insomnia issue isn’t really that serious; I think sometimes my brain just looks for something to seize on and jumps on that train to see where it will take me.
I’m all good! And not worried about anything, really. Just an insomnia dealio. Off to do all the things!
Everything’s cool. That’s the headline. I am, however, anxious (because anxiety is my jam) that I won’t be able to keep up. I’m fortunate to be working/studying with some brilliant people, and while I’d love to think I’m a pretty groovy chill Zen guy when it comes to this stuff, there’s a desire to at least be middle of the pack in these things.
Keeping up should be fine. I’m watching less junk, and reading more scholarship type things and that’s good. My main concerns are more around synthesis and absorption than the straight act of doing the readings.
Not a stellar run this morning; one of the ones where it feels like my blood has been replaced with some sort of viscous fluid. Mod Podge, maybe. Just staggering around town feeling like there’s Mod Podge flowing through my veins.
Actually got up this morning and picked up my iPad and read legal document stuff while feeding the cats, instead of firing up Riverdale on Netflix, which made me feel like a responsible and large-brained lad. But it’s necessary! I’m trying to sneak a bit ahead on readings, because that’s probably the best way for me to give myself some cushion if I get work-busy or home-busy.
It’s probably not great from either an educational or exercise standpoint, but I’ve just been reading some textbooks while on the spin bike (obviously not doing the up/down back/forth intense spinning thing, just treating it like an exercise bike).
It’s pretty great! 30 minutes at a moderate pace is a fine way to get some exercise in the morning, I’m a bit sweaty without being drenched (this is how I know I’m not really exercising), and I’ve absorbed a bit more of THE LAW.
I need to come up with my own learning strategies, though; I’ve got a few good ideas (mostly around rewriting / creating cheat sheets, etc.) that I can act on, but that’ll take a bit of evening focus.
I’m… not like super worried, but still mildly worried, about the ol’ grey matter and my ability, in my mid-40s, to absorb new information quickly and en masse. Certainly remote from anything resembling freaking out — I did take a number of classes online over the past few years, and did really well — but there’s some pride and some passion involved here, especially since I’m moving into the realm of academia.
Keeping up with the reading isn’t a problem, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t mildly concerned about absorption. I’ve read a ton over the past few days, but I think making time to review and especially discuss — I’m a talky learner — is going to be equally important.
Not using any of this as an excuse for bad food or bad exercise behaviour is obviously also on tap.
Seriously! I really, really, enjoy sleep. Not, like, in a depressed way, just in a “genuine enthusiasm” kind of way. Sleep’s great!
I’m writing this because, no surprise, I just woke up — Saturdays are wonderful, but I have to say I’m looking forward to the radio show ending and being able to sleep in a bit more.
Studying this weekend! I’ve got a lot on the go, educationally — taking one course, auditing another, and law courses are very read-ish. I’ve got about 40 pages of contracts, and dozens of my advanced research course.
Which is fine/good! It’s what I signed on for. I’m excited about it. It’s just what it is right now, and for the next year or so: lots and lots of reading!
Running a bit late today; some insomnia, but roused myself to feed the cats, back to bed, and up again for a solid row (music really helps! I don’t care if it’s a crutch!) and knocking this out before dashing to work. No time for bonus Dry and Mighty work today other than cursory looking at the alerts.
Still pretty jazzed up about it, and the LLM, and other things — work’s in a good groove right now, and I’m feeling like balance is attainable if I’m sensible about spending goodly free time keeping on top of studies and making some time for games, etc., but with intention instead of as a distraction.